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my shad0w's the only one that walkks beside me; my shall0w heart's the 0nly thingg that's beatingg; s0metimes i wish some0ne out therewill findd me; ` till thenn i walkk alonee.
Saturday, April 16, 2005 biig m0mma iis back guyys! been bz thiis wh0le m0nth prepariing fer went h0me tired n restless but iin the end w0n a its n0rt tat easy t0 earn eurself tat awardd spent m0st 0f mua dayys bitiing peeps! damn fleshyy man mua darlynk frens! oh yuhhs! sp0rts dayy iis als0 0ver! g0rt therdd in the cheer`leadiing c0mpetiti0n n0rt bad ii guess; but its bad fer me n0rt really satisfiied bt its okayy oh gawde! really mish eu guyss! so sorry fer n0rt updatiing mua blo0ggy but so sadd n0 one tagg mua taggyy and n0w im prepariing fer s0 siian wan! tr0ubles0me leii! //* [mua love life] so far we are doiing fine did have a few fights but that doesnt stop us we are still goiing on seeiing each other`s true colours everyday noe`iing each other more deeply hugs are gettiing tighter n donte feel like letting go misunderstandiing really drove us crazy hugs ; smooches ; lappy sleep iis nort enuff fer me whard ii actually want iis to live with him all my liife and never to part each day we part its ike a decade and i hope to be by his side all the time ii hope we will work hard together and make shure that we will always be together //*________[ love `euu ]__________ `loviing eu doesnt tire me `as its my responsibility to love euu `eur fame iis not what im in love wiith `but your true self iis what ii admired `though euu do hurt me sometimes `but my love iis always there for euu all the time `deep iinsiide ii treasure my heartx for euu `ii gave euu my all and made euu the owner of me `yet my dreamx hasnt come true `just one last wiish `would euu be faiithful as ii am to euu? s0metimes i wished s0me0ne out there will findd me; ``____x 5:01 AM
![]() Tuesday, March 08, 2005 damn tired man . today is quite a nice day had the maths & science quiz thingy get to redeem an and box that contains pen and pencil not that bad ii should say x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.[ matchmaker ].x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x this very day dated 8 o3 2oo5 ; ii ; sumarni bte sumadi ; united this two newly-lovers nur illyana ayu and noh iskandar at 3.45 pm x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.[ matchmaker ].x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x sometimes wehn eu see someone elses feeling happy ; euu will also feel the happiness sometimes wehn eu love that person ; eu would just wait and wait till eu get wad euu want there was a man he was in love with a young beautiful lady he was rejected fer the ferst time and thought he would give up on her she went on a relationship with anotha guy but he still waited and waited she got into a fight with her guy and they broke up she was so upset and felt stupid cuz she rejected him at the ferst place she thought that he would have forgotten her the next day ; at night ; she received a gdnight msg and its from him they kip in contacting each other and finally got web up and fall in love in the second tyme .. `the end `a true story of illyana n iskandar `rmb im the one hu help out `* winkx * s0metimes i wished s0me0ne out there will findd me; ``____x 6:52 AM
![]() Thursday, March 03, 2005 irritating huh ? well came back ta update new entries lets settle one byy one okayys ferst thing ! to mua dear frend [aQharii] yesh ! ii do loiike pereman but noww no more ! so donte make a BIG fuss bout iit noww ta me he`s nuttink than a jerk ! tankeww ! look ; must ii really love dat person before ii could call dat person `darlynk` ? ii just donte understand some of these guyys can euu love eur own frend ? ridiculous isnt iit ? let`s close arpp thiis topiic .x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x tadayy was actually a bor`iing dayy got dat pett rocket thingyy whiich is wastiing mua tiime - hate mr chai ever ! bloodyy hell ! cant even stand his looks man ! i did nothing and he went ta me and sayy `if euu donte respect me then i wonte respect euu` whudd fcuk is he try`iing ta sayy heere ? even duriing the pet rocket thingy whereby the science students enjoy`iing ; he still can go ard and scold mua classmate whudd on earth does he think he`s doiink - shutt ! havent do mua d & t werk im damn tired tadayy feel loiike nort coming ta skool tmr ! * siigh * i have no energyy to flip thru books and jot down answers underlining ; reading ; writing ouh mua gawde ! whr can i get dat energy from ? im goiink to slp after this oraiit guyys mua heavy eyyes nid some rest c ya next time round yuhhs ! ` grL blew kisses ~ - ` darke pwiincess____. - s0metimes i wished s0me0ne out there will findd me; ``____x 9:49 PM
![]() Sunday, February 27, 2005 but must ii really fall fer euu? ii do care fer euu always hope that euu would be a better person but as a fren ; ifaiiled ii donte knoww how to change euu back euu eurself made me hate euu ii cant fergive euu fer whudd eu had juste done ii cant tolerate euu even fer a miinute ii donte noe whyie eu could do this to me but although euu hurt me ii will takeit light fer noww always remember wehn euu are down im alwaes dher fer euu - darke wpiincess- s0metimes i wished s0me0ne out there will findd me; ``____x 1:07 PM
![]() Monday, February 14, 2005 ii had never cheated euu whyiie cant euu trust me fer just this once? for all my 14 yrs 1 mth 14 dayys 8 hrs 58 mins and this few secondds whiich iis still tickiing euu had never giiven me eur trust all euu thought bout me was all iin a badd viiew but whyiie? iis iit too hard to trust eur own daughter? euu spiied me as i walked out of school ii act as iif euu are invisible duu euu noe how shameful iit iis wehn myy friends getta noe that myy dad donte trust me? ii noe euu put up high hopes on me and donte want me to fall like eur other children but euu should have confidence iin eur children aint euu? ii noe whudd iim doiink and whudd iim SUPPOSE to duu ii noe myy dutiies as a daughter thers no niid fer euu to remiind euu had nort stepped iinto school before and euu donte even noe the stress euu can get iin educatiion and noww euu tryy to be kind wiit me mayy ii noe whudd kindof crapp is this? duu euu wiin anyy award fer doiink this to me? euu put me iin a werl full of kwuestions euu dinte giive me freedom and ii just donte care euu caged me up like a bird and ii just ignored euu nagged at me every single dayy as iif i've done a mistake euu differentiiate me wiit others giirls euu want me to follow all the good things but euu eurself iis walkiing iin a wrong path everyyone iin thiis house shows me bad example and euu expect me to follow the god want but from hu cant ii take the good example from euu eurself had to rmb this wehn ii was 7 euu left us all by ourselves euu made mom sweat and toiils to feed the 3 of us even now euu dinte even give hurr the rite amount fer expenses r euu the husband that myy mom wants to marry? euu r considered luckyy euu noe that? tell me whiich ladyy wants to marry a drug addiict? even euu giirls wonte duu that right? ii donte noe till wehn wiill ii be treated thiis way oh GAWDE please re-shaped myy destinyy ` darke pwiincess____. s0metimes i wished s0me0ne out there will findd me; ``____x 9:20 PM
![]() Saturday, February 12, 2005 nah its me so-called tsunami of dha class tadae is saturdayy its so damn boriing no outings no calls no nice shows still have tmr anotha boring dayy i wanna go out! i donte wanna be a homey ghurl lucky ma ez-link is not ard whiiye no one called me tadayy iim damn phreaking bored n wonder hus tt phreaking freak tt tagged looking fer trouble huhs naming i donte giv a damn cuz i noe tt person is envy bout ma bloggy cheese off eu freak! lots of ma frends getting EMO evry single dayy must be some personal problems huhs well better nort interfere cuz ii noe tt will infuriate `em some failed in love failed to get someone some got relationship problems wych is too personal some is too suicidal crazy mad due to love failure dhers even victim off ill-treatment from fella mates like me still waiting fer tt someone ta talk ta me all dayys i see him as a bz man n its okay he told me he;s not bz but acted as he was bz how hurtful was tt aniwae if eu were me gosh! but i have to take it lightly as it doesnt affect me tt much - aint it? i have to be strong to go thru my evryday life no matter how bad or good its gonna be i still have to go thru it all my life well staying at home really sucky no peace at all loud voices evrywerh pple yelling babies cryying shoutiing throwiing tantrumms i feel like kickiing all this pple out of dha house they really infuriates me n i really hate `em like wad jyst happen tis veryy moment i cleared evrytink in dha sink cleaned dha house bedrooms kitchen bathed tt bloody irritatiing kidd and wehn they reached home evrytink went into a MESS once again sink full of plates cups forks spoons plastic containers d clean floor turns filthy once again oh mua lawde! i hate enuff of this wehn shall all this gonna stop if i ignored all this they gonna sae im a lazy bump useless daughter useless sister argh!!! i really HATE this life i wish i could just end it or get exchanged with someone's im cramped! gawde! help me! s0metimes i wished s0me0ne out there will findd me; ``____x 6:59 PM
![]() Thursday, February 10, 2005 trying hurr very best ta get rid of hurr boredom she couldn`t have a nice slp in sucha hawte afternoon she and hurr dark room with windows and doors closed witout friends or sounds that accompanied hurr cant waiit ta meet hurr friends once again after spending 2 daes at home wych drove hurr CRAZYY ; yelling about she adores him but she noe that he`s just hurr past she hadd ta continue hurr life wit new memoriies she doesnt now wehn will she able ta make hurr own decision a right one that can do good fer hurr she doesnt want ta be hurtt agaiin she had enuff of evrythiing ever since she realises wads goiing on she wants peace that can keep hurr ta rest want ta stop dha spears that keeps on thrusting against hurr chest had enuff of all those biytches all those liiars pervy-creeps heartt breakers and so on and so forth its nort that she wanna make enemiies wit hurr own friends but she just hate it wehn others get involved in hurr personal probs n wehn she`s too infuriated she just donte care wad she saed she`s someone hus alwaes 'out wit it' donte ever tryy ta stopp hurr iin wad she`s doiink dha more eu stop hurr dha more she will doo it she just wants to scrap off hurr bad memoriies please doo give hurr dha right ta doo anything she wants as that makes hurr feel mor happier and satisfied ii noe eu guyys are mua frend but ii just hate it wehn eu guys interefered ii noe eu guyys do really care bout me and ii donte really mind that instead ii appreaciate that but fer this while please let me have some peace s0metimes i wished s0me0ne out there will findd me; ``____x 4:56 PM
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*[[____ the girll `-//* . ` suu mar nii' . ` stoodent . ` 12 o9 9o . ` NavaL Base Secondaryy SchOoL . ` nuts . ` crazyy . ` black naiiLs *[[____ huRr adores`-//* . ` mua pwiince charming . ` dancing ; mua daily routine . ` death . ` darkeness . ` blood . ` smacking pple butt *[[____ huRr loathes`-//* . ` biytches . ` trendyy wankers . ` brokenn heartx . ` liars . ` revengeful idiots . ` cowerdds . ` disrespectful jerks . eu broke ma heartx ! *[[___ She who dreams can touch the stars `-//* x . donte change me . x *[[___ aRseHoLes`//* [HaRiiZ] [FaiiZaH] [FaRaLiiNa] [ShaHiDaH] [TauFiik's FaN] [SyaRfa] [AmY] [LoOt`phie] [HiiLMii] [AziiE] [AqHaRii] [FaRaMy] [ZaDD] [YaNa] [JuLiZa]
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